When you turn twenty-eight Saturn returns to the place it was when you were born, which is why that time of life is such a painful experience. I equate it with Dorothy going down the brick road, looking behind the curtain, and going, “Is this what I dreamed of? Is that all there is?” You have this splendid vision of the Wiz, and that when you get there everything’s going to be great. Then when you get to the Emerald City your life is not transformed, and you have to rethink your expectations and your dreams. That’s what I was going through. I had to sit out a couple of years and rethink myself.
But looking back, that period was invaluable because it gave me the strength to know I could go through anything. Once that period passes—and it will—you realize you have muscles of steel, and that nothing can touch you. It’s a period that everyone has to go through in their lives, although sadly many people don’t make it past that point.
RuPaul, Letting It All Hang Out